NS... waste of time???

haha... im finally back again... this wk has been super demoralisin in army for me... i failed my IPPT, failed SOC, den went for SIT test frm thurs wif high hopes of myself leadin the team to complete their mission successfully... but all dint turn out well... cos i realised tt i cant really tink very calmly on the spot... so for the 2 missions tt i led... both failed in the end... but i believed i did better for the 2nd mission than my 1st mission... so MAYB tt mite be considered an improvement??? but anyway... i guess i dun hav high hopes anymore to enter command sch... so mayb waitin for A level results mite be an option... since if i can get gd grades n enter med sch i can still be an officer... but easier said than done... so i guess mayb tt one wont work out also... sigh... den NS mite juz jolly well be a stupid waste of time... but one thing i hate abt NS is how the superiors treat us smtimes... smtimes i tink they treat us like some entertainment objects... which is freakingly nonsensical... lower rank than u doesn't mean u can juz "play" wif us as n when u like it... if i was to become a superior i will make sure tt i dun do tt to my men... yup... ok... im damn tired now... super shagged... will update more nxt time... :)