Do I still hav a dream???

ok... the title sounds pessimistic for a start... but tt is exactly wad im feelin towards my medicine dream now... had my interview on thursday... n i must say tt it has been extremely gruellin for me... esp when i really felt tt i really cant answer the qns they gave me well... most of the time i myself dint noe wad i was tolkin abt... n to top tt off, for the 2nd round... i actually appeared so unsure of whether i really wanted the place... frankly... i nearly cried when they really teared me down bit by bit... i almost couldn't take it tt i cldn't convince them abt wad i really wanted to do... y must God giv me a chance only to smash me down damn hard???... if there was anything tt i can hope for now... its a super big miracle... which i tink will be well likely not to happen... so mayb this goes my dream for yrs... juz wanna wish the others who applied gd luck... u all probably hav one less competitor now...
for the rest of this wk... nth much tho... except tt i went thru a lot n a lot of bad stuff... for one... i committed a chargeable offence... which i dun want to mention now... but luckily for me they let me off after givin me some punishments... den had to write countless statements... i appeared like i was repeatedly punished for the same offence... ba... if there was anythin tt can be slightly better this wk... i did well for my SOC timing... 9.51s... but too bad i still failed an obstacle... so tt means more corrective trainin for me... sigh... :(

Updates...

hmm... my mood now???... tired, but still... i must finish bloggin here first b4 i go on for my supper of carrot cake... haha... this wk in SISPEC has been very very xiong... practically everyday hav to go outfield... n wad's the worst thing abt outfield trainin??? its tt u hav to camo on n off... which totally sux... n it really blocks the pores of the ur face... which will result in the poppin out of pimples on ur face... den this wk went to Lower Mandai to "horlan" *which means to bash into the dense vegetation n lose ur way arnd*... hmm... super shaggin... plus the silly checkpts were off lor... so my grp spent like how many hrs searchin for a silly checkpt... argh!!!... its damn irritatin n frustratin when u noe tt u r at the correct place but u juz cant find it despite combin for so long... but for the test we were lucky... out of 6 checkpts... we found 5... tho not w/o helping zy try to find his lost antenna... which was damn unlucky for us... den today bk out was super rushed... always like tt as per usual... really wonder y they must always plan it like tt... den followin tt, went j8 to meet lt to teach her a bit of basic music theory... den had dinner tgt n got persuaded to sign some plan after we got stopped by some road-show personnel... wonder y im so gullible... haha... ok... more updates nxt time ba!!! :)

Accepted!!!

ok... i deleted the earlier post cos its no longer relevant... i hav received the letter tt i hav been shortlisted for interview by NUS med fac... which brings me a step closer to realising my dream.. thank God!!! :)

Long Break...

hmm... today is the 1st day of my long wkend break (3 days)... n i spent the morn in church for good fri service b4 headin out to toa payoh wif pl n low for lunch n a kbox session... haha... met my god-sis serena there... but apparently she's a bit troubled by smth which i will not mention here... hope all will be fine for her... :)... for the past wk in SISPEC, life has been quite slack... cos its a short wk n to tink tt we got a nights out on monday nite, in which i spent at a LAN shop at jurong east playing Command n Conquer Generals Zero Hour wif shane... my first time playin in a LAN shop... haha... but of course, nights out means serious compromisation on slpin time... so the nxt day i was sooo super tired tt i fell asleep at every single lecture n lesson... *but den again... i will still be more than willing to hav nights out... such is the poor life of an army boy*... tuesday nth much... except tt OC gave us a gd pep tolk cos wed was our IPPT... n he said tt those who got silver can get early bk-out on the following 2 saturdays... sounds attractive enuf... so i chionged for a silver n clocked my personal best for both chin-ups n 2.4km run... i got my silver... which means im officially out of nite PT n i can get to bk-out early... but tt nite... OC tolked to us again n this time he said tt he was unsatisfied wif the number of gold we had... so he wants all who dint get gold to chiong again... (the irony is tt they promised us tt those who got silver n above n dint want to try again can skip the nxt IPPT... so all tt is now void... every1 has to do again)... ok... oh... den on wed afternn i had my compass course... where they dump us inside this small hill n made us traverse the hill left n rite in search of our checkpts... i fared quite ok... so hopefully nxt monday when they throw us into the mandai jungle i can be spared frm losing my way inside the jungle... which can be quite scary... :(... den thursday had SOC... sadly i still cant clear the low rope... but i made tremendous improvement... so mayb by the nxt one i can do much better liao... haha... tt will be all for my army life this wk... to my dear guy frens who r still serving their NS... gambatte neh!!!... :)

Updates...

its been quite some time since i last blogged liao... my last entry is supposedly on 30 mar, which is abt 9 days plus b4 today... so to prevent this blog frm premature death, i shall update it once again... sigh... realised tt most guys nowadays can only tolk abt army life... n now tt xav has gone in liao... frm today onwards the whole class of guys will be so busy tolkin abt army whenever we meet up... but for me... this wk has been quite gd... cos i managed to clear my low rope for SOC.. which has weighed on my heart for very very long ever since tekong life... thx to all the encouragement frm pple like zishi n lt... as well as my bunk mates who hav been highly encouragin n patiently coachin me... but its still very funny... cos out of the 11 obstacles, i can only clear 10 no matter wad... its either low rope or swing-trainer (aka monkey bar)... hmm... guess its more trainin ba... den on monday n fri we had live firing... which i tink i kinda screwed up the experience cos i was too excited n nervous n forgot wad to do... so i got a lot of misses... but since its juz some familiarisation shoot *which means shoot for fun*, doesn't matter... oh... den on wed nite we had nites out... shiok... a whole grp of guys harboured arnd jurong point... n i watched Ice Age 2... haha... its a super funny comedy despite the story havin a bit of no link at some parts... but its really lame n funny... n a lot of those who watched were highly amused... great way to relax... :)... so the anticipation for this wk is a yet-to-be confirmed lunch wif my KAP pact buddies n a much dreaded bk-in tml at 2130h... n happy bday to minz!!! yup... 19 yrs old liao... but dun worry... ks n i will catch up wif u soon... :)...
now to more personal stuff *tho its still related to army*... im kinda bugged by the way some pple behave... i c selfishness, refusal to co-ordinate cos they dun like some1, and also bad-mouthin to some extent... i mean... this really shldn't be the way... n it really pisses me off at times... i hope i can change tt someday... yup... may God help me... n im startin to worry abt my application to med sch... sigh... at first i tot by this wk will noe results of shortlistin... den since my parents dint inform me abt anythin... i tot my hope was gone... den luckily david told me tt the results will only be known latest by 20 apr... so mayb there's still a bit of hope left ba... :) argh!!!