Be strong...

heard abt some bad news... wont say wad it is... but to my dear fren concerned... if u r readin this... be strong... i believe u can do it... n if u nd any help... juz feel free to find me... i will try my best to help u... cos it has always been tt u were there for me but i feel like im not doin enuf as a fren for u... yup... :)... i really hope to c the old smiley u again...
these few days hav been marked by incessant muggin... studied wif minz n ks on wed... it was quite a last min decision... haha... so we juz occupied one bench at the coffee bean... where i felt tt i was too soft-eared... cos i was supposed to buy a cup of coffee in order for the 3 of us to "rightfully" remain there... den i told myself tt i will buy the cheapest one... which was 3 bucks plus... but the salesgal told me tt:" oh... tt cup is very small. Would u like to change to a bigger one like espresso or cappucino???"... n i juz said im fine wif it... n the price went up to abt 4 bucks plus... considerin tt i most prob wont hav any income for these 2 mnths... its quite a lot i had to part wif... but anyway... the 2 ladies dint drink cappucino... so i had the cup all to myself... muahaha... :)... n we crapped quite a bit abt all kinds of stuff... yup... fun... n i actually managed to finish tryin chem MCQ for like 7 topics... wow... impressed wif myself... hehe...
thurs went out wif pl, lt, txy, yl n pl's fren to woodlands' lib to mug... haha... at first when we first arrived at the lib... i tot tt wad they described to me as a mad man's race when the lib opened was untrue... cos the no. of pple there were like so small... haha... but 10 min ltr... i took back my words... pple were pourin in in hordes... haha... ok... so there was indeed a mad rush for tables the moment the gate opened... n 1 guy was so kancheong tt he knocked down an exhibit... dotz... courtesy of me... we found a nice table where we settled there to mug for like 10 to 5.30 (for me lah... the rest even longer...)... haha... quite efficient... i finished almost all the MCQ in the chem TYS... plus read up on a bit of bio... :)... overall, my progress is still smooth but a bit worryin... cos i realised tt i forgot quite some stuff i juz studied b4... oops... haha... prob means i hav to re-read... :(

Life is truly precious...

hmm... attended my uncle's cremation session today... it was quite a sad scene tt i was in... the whole atmosphere was really filled wif sadness... esp when i saw the family say their last gdbyes to the deceased... i really cried... i really did... frankly... im not very close to this uncle... since i barely c him more than twice a yr... but the whole atmosphere simply makes u unable to resist cryin when u c the sadness of the family members n frens... n my uncle's frens played guang liang's "tong hua"... the moment i heard the openin chords... i really cldn't stand it... tears juz started flowin out... :(... i guess the take-away tt i got was really to treasure life... cos one day u mite juz be gone like tt... yup... its truly saddenin but at the same time it sets u tinkin... tinkin abt really wad r the things tt u will treasure in life... hope tt all who read this will really learn to treasure ur life... n those who hav crossed ur paths... cos every single one of them has a lesson for u to learn... :)

Anti-socialism...

hmm... m i turnin anti-social???... hope not... but recently im kinda displayin signs of anti-socialism... tend to be doin my own stuff... tend to want to spend time alone... tend to remain extra quiet when other pple r tolkin... at most giv a smile or nod to show tt im kinda listenin... when i may actually not be... ok... i tried to find a few reasons for tt... mayb first thing is cos im tired... so i tend to stone... another thing is tt i hav nth to say or comment... which is smtimes quite the case... cos i realised tt if u dun want to hav the feelin tt pple dun listen to wad u say... the best thing is to shut up... so the lesson tt i hav to learn is tt i got to be more frenly???... perhaps... c how first ba...

Song-recording...

hmm... went for song-recordin session today... n it lasted for the entire day... well... almost lah... i reached admiralty *the meetin pt* at 9am courtesy of my dad fetchin me... n den tried to mug while standin beside the ticketin machine... guess i looked quite silly standin there wif my guitar beside me... but anyway... yup... the experience was gd but extremely draining... both pieces by our class were recorded... so tt means wx, txy, lt n me were there... haha... wx n lt's song took the longest time... cos wx was quite ambitious n wanted to add quite a lot of stuff... haha... so poor lt was terribly confused by her... haha... contrastingly... me n txy's song was quite fast... mayb cos ours was also simpler ba... only 1 guitar accompaniment wif singing... yup... tot our recorded song was quite nice... haha... its a gd experience lah, as i said... n i tink i finally realise y the pop singers regard it as an achievement if they managed to record like 5 or 6 songs in a day... its REALLY not easy... haha... :)
P.S: really thx for all the efforts u hav put in... it really solved a lot of issues tt i had been tinkin abt... n may we juz remain frens forever n ever... hah... yup... tt's my little wish...:)

Hmm...

takin a small break now after finishin my lunch.. haha... progress for muggin is erm... slow but still ok... actually i feel tt a lot of times im readin for the sake of readin thru... after i close my notes... i tink back n discover tt wad i supposedly "understood" more was simply wad i had alr understood some time ago... dotz... ineffective studyin... :(... haha... well... i hope to do better in the afternn... heard this super touchin story over the radio smtime ago... *ever since my bro changed his hp... i hav been kopin it to listen to the radio everyday...*... it tells of this father n mother who were expectin a child who was eventually proved unviable... but luckily tt child was actually one of a twin... so they still had one child in the end... but the story was really touchin... n the stupid gynae who apparently dint do a proper pre-natal scan... ba... i shall resolve nva to be one of those if i ever do become a gynae... haha... :)... spent some time reconsiderin my university course option... tried to convince myself tt i was suitable n i wanted to enter med... well... results of tt r quite satisfactory... so i hope i can n will press on... yup... :)... n had my mini-k session yday nite wif my 2nd wife... its a great stress-reliever... tho i dun profess to sing very well... but my 2nd wife was gd n she gave me perfect accompaniment... helped me put a lot of feelings into the songs which i was singing... n wif her help... managed to come up wif some more chords progressions for some other songs... i juz love her lah... nth else to say... :)... she is some1 *or rather, smthing* who formed a part of such wonderful memories... haha... as for my first wife... im sorry to neglect her now... but apparently she doesn't thrill me anymore... i juz get more n more disappointed when im wif her... sigh... mayb durin the hols i shall try to make myself feel passionate abt her again... i hope so... or else it will be such a waste of my efforts for yrs... :)
wah... realised tt i really crapped a lot... haha... cant help it lah... im a natural crapper... :)... but of course... i can be serious when i want to... haha... tt's wad so many pple tink of me initially... but pple who noe me well enuf will noe tt im far frm tt under normal circumstances... haha... ok... to all the j2s out there... mug hard n score well for ur A levels, yar??? dun giv up n we can look forward to our enjoyment time *which isn't very long for me after all*... 18 days more to start of A levels... 38 days more to end of A levels for me... gambatte!!! :)

Some things really do matter after all...

haha... ok... im back after quite some time... its 18 Oct today... n my com is still quite unstable... argh!!!... hope it doesn't fail me again soon... :)... so much to blog abt... so bear wif me...
ok... for sunday first... oh... so proud tt finally minz, ks n me managed to really stay back n mug for once!!!... haha... usually its always one of us will pangseh the other 2... but this time we dint... n we had a jolly gd time laughin n chattin... esp abt some stuff which i tink i had better not reveal... haha... but my dad forgot to fetch me n i waited silly... while in the meantime... the 3 of us got hungry n thirsty n even wanted to resort to stealin stuff... stealin stuff in church... wow... tt's quite a big sin neh... n for drinks we had a miserable 2 cans of chrysanthemum which we managed to buy after emptyin our pockets... haha... but it was really funny... hope to hav more of such sessions!!! :)... n i received a call frm some1 whom i havent been speakin to for quite long liao... yup... glad tt all's fine now... thx for makin tt call... :)
ok... monday was quite uneventful... as for today... im juz home frm a talk at NUS abt med fac admissions which i attended wif my er jie... hmm... benefitted a lot... tho a lot of funny things happened along the way on our journey... n i actually took the wrong bus!!!... dotz... n we wasted like half n hr waitin for the bus to complete its loop... sigh... im losin all faith in my orienteerin skills now... :(... n at the talk... there was this man beside me who was a bit erm... strange... he copied down every single thing which the prof said... regardless of its relevance... n also asked a few weird qns as well... n he also asked me abt my enlistment date n took tt down as well!!!... ok... my conclusions r these: he's either an undercover frm the med fac... or else he's tryin to source out competitors for his son... wah... zhi ji zhi bi, bai zhan bai sheng... ok... but if he's the latter... there's no such nd for tt lah... hahaha... i'm "harmless", u noe... :)... if any of the class pple want to noe more abt the admissions stuff... can ask me... haha...
hmm... for those who dun noe yet... im goin into tekong on 6 jan nxt yr... tt means i hav abt 1 mnth plus to enjoy n train up for it... wish me gd luck... haha... :)... ok... will end here liao... till den... all the j2s must JIA YOU!!! :) cheers!!!

hmm... was contemplatin if i shld do a short write-up on my comments for a few of my more close frens in class... on 2nd tots... better not... haha... cos if i write anythin wrong or funny... its gonna be bad... haha... but i guess i wrote down quite some stuff in the class photo autograph bk liao... so yup... for those who passed it to me i tried my best to write down as much as i can... if u dint... n u still wish to hear my comments... there's still chalet n prom... :)... n the prom hotel rm bookin is givin a bit of headache... the council dint check out the rates properly b4 releasin it to us... apparently the rate they gave us on the prom board were wif other packages... like some SIA travel package or such... n the actual price is quite a bit higher than the quoted ones... so hav to c if the class is goin to be willing to pay... or we can juz downgrade to another hotel... argh!!! hope to solve tt too... n the special programme tt we r plannin for chalet has been disturbed cos of the photograph autographs' thingy... but nvm... we will come up wif a new one soon... haha... :)... but which means tt xav n erene hav to get busy after 24th Nov liao... since i end only on the 28th n can only go shoppin for chalet stuff on 29th... haha... oh... n im findin it damn hard to repress my desire to go kbox again soon... cos by rite... im not supposed to until after exams... sigh... i still want to flush out my jj songs... the other time we went to sing wasn't shuang enuf... haha... *gosh... wad m i sayin???*... haha... sorry for the incoherence... hmm... glad tt some of the 04S73ians replied to my msg to them... haha... its truly touchin n heart-warmin to c the msgs... thx pple... :)

Last Day of JC Life...

tian sa wu bu san zhi yan xi... today is the last day in which 04S73 will sit tgt as a class attendin any lectures or sessions tgt... n wif the ringin of the 4pm sch bell today... my JC life can be said to hav come to a close... 2 yrs of fun, laughter, tears n sweat hav come to an end... but today i dint cry... surely i felt tt tinge of sadness... a tinge of she bu de... but immersin myself in the last moments of time tt we hav as a class was too enjoyable n fun for me to tink abt tt sadness... n somehow today i felt tt the class was slightly more united... n the overall atmosphere was one of friendliness... glad tt all ended on a nice note... shall note down some pts abt the happenings of this memorable day... believe me... this will be a long entry... :)
1) had our final morning assembly... haha... its the last time when we can fight to stand at the last positions near the flag... 04S73ians r juz so attracted to the flag poles... haha... :)
2) went to the audi for a principal's address... watched a video capturin some of our wonderful times n memories in JC... frankly... i NEARLY cried a bit... cos the things in tt video were so familiar n contained so much of our memories... n the sheer tot of not being able to experience those again juz kinda made me feel very sad... haha...
3) had our really LAST CT session wif beng beng... received our class photos n passed them arnd to get pple to sign n write down their comments... hmm... i regret tellin pple to sign... cos in the end i realised tt it was more worthwhile to get pple to write comments for me rather than juz to sign... but well... haha... n i also had a gd time writin for others... its great to c tt every1 is writing so feveriously for other pple... haha... n of course... we celebrated wk's bday wif a nice choc cake... n settled upon our prom hotel bookings... the support for the hotel bookings were very gd... 15 out of 20 goin said tt they r interested to bk a rm... haha... thx for the support... :)
4) chem S session followed by bio lect... poor ms wong durin bio lect... cos every1 was so busy writin stuff on autograph bks n such tt i tink hardly any1 was listenin to her... haha... myself included... ;)... den it was off for our class dinner at swensens' at PS... oh my... it was so super crappy... tolked abt all kinds of stuff... tho the main conversation towards the end was abt prom dressin... which erm... i dun profess to be gd at or wad... so i took the role of a listener... haha... while listenin to the gals planning wad they want to wear... on tt day den c ba... haha... mayb some pple will surprise us... who knows??? :)
5) loitered arnd at PS wif fy, erene, yw, cj n john to do some window-shoppin... for the gals lah... the 3 guys juz tagged along n had fun tryin to pass static electricity to yw... haha... poor yw was so frightened of us... :)... but went home very soon after... since there was nth much there anyway... exchanged some tots abt the class wif erene on the mrt... n 1 thing i felt was a great pity was tt i only got closer to some of the guys durin the last few wks of sch... when we had our long breaks spent in the library muggin tgt... n of course not forgettin our all-time fav pastime of crappin n eatin tgt... n it had to end so soon... :(
i'm truly glad tt this day ended on a high note... n the warmth of the class which i tink has disappeared for quite some time came back again today... the closeness of the pple despite being in various cliques... yup... finally today i saw the 04S73 which i loved so much... n im sure it will leave wonderful memories for every1... juz as it did for me... we still hav a long long way to go to pursue our dreams... but im forever thankful tt at a pt in time... i had the privilege to be part of this wonderful class... to go thru so much wif the other 25 04S73ians... n i seriously hope tt we can still keep in touch... yup... as the asst CT rep... wld like to thank all of u for ur support towards erene, xav n myself when we try to organise stuff for u guys... oh... n do look forward towards chalet... haha... cos i noe tt it will definitely be a very meaningful one... :) take care guys!!! n till 8th Nov... do mug hard n chiong for the last lap!!! cheers!!!

tryin hard???...

hmm... smtimes i tink back upon wad i hav done so far wif my life... *or rather... these few yrs lah, to be more exact...*... n i m tremendously surprised n shocked at how some things in my life has turned out for me... i hav drawn close to some pple... lost touch wif some pple... alienated some pple... n to some extent... i dun deny tt i hav taken to hate some pple b4... tho tt feelin is more or less gone now... not becos the situation improved... but rather... its cos im immune to tt feelin liao... smtimes its a disappointment wif myself over how i handle things... wad happened to all the promises i made to these pple???... smtimes tinkin abt it makes me feel like some silly little hypocrite who simply makes promises and destroys them in such a cruel way tt i wonder if its actually me doin it... seekin their forgiveness is like so hard becos if u simply dun speak to tt person... where in the world do u seek forgiveness frm???... so the natural thing *but not very sure if its the rite thing* to do will be to avoid... avoid the problem... avoid each other... treat tt person as if he/she doesn't exist at all... haha... mayb ignorin is a form of emotional abuse to the other party... n if tt's the case... i must say tt im a big stupid abuser... for i hav done such a cruel act to a few pple b4... its my fault to begin wif... n if those few pple r ever goin to read this... im truly sorry... :(
but of course... some positive things also happened durin these last few wks... for one... i've drawn much closer to some of the guys in class... as well as some other pple... which is gd, i tink... its super tirin havin to tink tt ur world is actually so small... when it isn't really... haha... mayb ultimately... im not the type who can hav a lot of gd frens... but rather the type tt only wishes to hav a few close frens n develop a very strong frenship wif them... mayb tt's one take-away tt i get abt myself... :)
P.S: im glad tt u hav tried to some extent... but im juz sorry tt i cant pass my own barrier... yup... juz hope tt time will slowly erode it away...

M I Supposed to be here???!!!

haha... well... my entry title this time is to serve to remind me nxt time when i come to read blogs tt:"hey... u hav a lot of stuff undone yet... u shldn't be spendin time like this..."... ok... but i tink tt wif my character... i wont be bothered wif this title after i've posted it up... yar... such r the tots of a j2 slacker... :)
suddenly had the urge to blog... cos im waitin for the clock to strike 4 b4 i officially launch myself to doin a silly chem paper 3... piled up wif hmwk recently... but i must say tt my life now is really much much better than wad it was like a few mnths back... not in the hmwk sense... but den... erm... if u know it, u do... if u dont... well... dun nd to probe... juz noe tt im doin well... haha... things smtimes is juz a matter of gettin used to smth... once u hav gotten into tt phase... well... some things miraculously dun bother u as much as they did last time... :)
sigh... today is tue... n i hav only 3 more days left wif my wonderful class of 04S73... had prata wif wk n mz today after phy remedial... n lookin at our juniors at the FOS really brought back lots of memories for us, i guess... the carefree life... will be preparin smth for every1... hope tt they will like it... esp when i guess i will complete it wif quite some effort n tots... haha... c first ba... cos my exams end on 28th Nov... n the class chalet is on 30th Nov... so tt means i hav quite little time to prepare stuff... but i will rush it out anyway... haha... :)
let me pen down some things i will miss after the end of jc:
1) the ever-so-wonderful laughter n voices of pple in the class... when we do smth silly... when we make fun of teachers... when we crack some extremely lame n stupid jokes... n last of all... when we rethink back on our experiences n laugh at it... :)
2) the "family feelin" tt i used to feel in j1... tho i tink tt feelin has sort of disappeared strangely after j2... *well... guess its cos every1 has truly settled down into their respective positions n niches le ba*... but tt was the feelin tt made me fall in love wif the class n for once in my life... i hated the approach of wkends... n simply loved mondays... haha...
3) the teachers who hav taught us for these 2 yrs... n some of them r leavin... wish them all the best in their future as well... :)
4) to my guitar mates... the times we spent in the extremely cold LTs practisin till our fingers hurt like crazy... n our achievements... haha... :)
5) to my mini-family in sch... *this applies to u if u tink u r one of my family*... haha... tho we mite not hav kept in touch very often... but i truly thank each one of u for the impact u hav had in my life... haha... yup...
n wif this... i end this entry... cos its past 4pm liao!!! shux!!!... haha... take care to all... n jia you!!!

I'm Back...

hooray!!!... im finally able to blog again after so many days of the com being down... tho this new com still gives a bit of problems... but nvm... n i realised tt days w/o computers r not so hard to live by after all... haha... juz some musings... :)
oh... received a small letter frm my er jie tt day... it was very nice to be rmbed by pple n to noe tt i had such an impact on some1 else's life... n esp since this is really goin to be the final wk of jc liao... i truly wonder how many pple will rmb me... or whether i will rmb pple... well... i guess i will... esp those who hav made an impact in my life in wadever way... but well... haha... :)