Vexed...

hmm... mayb its the humid weather ba... but it hasnt been a gd day for me at all... except for the fact tt there was no chem S... which meant tt i reached home at like 4 plus... smth quite unheard of for quite some time... :)... got back maths... ok... its quite gd lah... but somehow i was a bit disappointed... n i scored only 1 mark for P & C... wow!!!... tt means tt there's some buckin up to do... sigh... i really regret ponnin tt lecture... now im payin the price for it... den durin GP got niaoed... for being unable to answer qn... fine... i guess i hav been seriously blackmarked... n if i say i dun care... im bluffin u... come on lah... who likes to be blackmarked???... sigh... to add on to tt is the fact tt pressure is startin to build up... frm pple, frm within myself... where is all the determination tt i once saw myself exhibiting???... its all gone now... n im juz reduced to some1 who apparently has a not-to-be-bothered attitude... strange... i seem to hav gone thru even more this past 2 yrs than i hav ever b4... its been a huge roller coaster ride... :(...
received my NS medical check-up/registration letter yday... ok... im goin to go back to the time when i was shaved botak by the boardin sch barber for a fee of 5 bucks... in abt a few mnths time... den mayb pple will exclaim:" CS, is tt u???!!!"... ok... i juz hope pple can rmb me as some1 who has crossed their lives n made an impact b4... n for me... tt's more than enuf... yup... :)