Forever...

hmm... my mum juz told me a notable quote... "every1 follows u thru 1 lifetime, but siblings follow u thru 2..."... i find it really true... ur gd frens or whoever, even ur parents, only will be wif u thru "1 lifetime"-- either when u r growin up or when u hav have grown up all the way till u die... but only ur siblings will follow u thruout ur entire life... so cherish them... cos so many a times we always take them for granted... i must say tt i admit tt i havent been a really gd brother all this while... haha... *confession time*... n i've juz quarrelled wif my bro over some stuff... n my mouth hasnt been really tt pleasant after all... spite n venom keeps comin out of it... tt i cant even imagine tt's me... sigh... plus a bit of discouragement after readin some stuff... cos it was absolutely pessimistic... i wont hesitate to say tt... n it kinda had me involved in it... ok... i admit tt it was my fault... i dun blame u for being mad... but i had other reasons to attend to as well... ba... nvm...
realised it to be quite hard to tolk to some pple now... (the same issue arises over n over again)... i try myself not to start my "immune response"... n tt is to juz simply dao pple all the way straight... which i noe i might if i dun make a conscientious effort not to do it... after all... u wunt feel so bad not tolkin to other pple when u r the one who's initiatin it... n u dun feel left out... but then... tt obviously isn't the right attitude towards the issue... i really dun want to fall into tt horrible vicious cycle again... it has been painful enuf for me... n i really dun want history to repeat itself... treat it as if im over-sensitive... i dun mind... juz hope tt wad im tinkin of can be known... some pple can treat it as nothin wrong, but i cant, ok???... screwed up... :(