The Phantom...

ok... im officially added to beng beng's msn... whoever the person is... seriously its not very funny lor... hope tt u will end it... thx a lot for tt... :(
erm... not in a very gd mood today... 1stly... screwed up chem spa skill A... blah... dun want to tolk abt it liao... let it be over... 2ndly... had a damn long chem S paper session... n when my stomach is not co-operatin... its extremely terrible havin to bear wif gastric problems... 3rdly... im juz plain, dead tired... every bit of energy in me has now been used to juz keep this machinery of mine goin... meetin deadlines here n there... work piling up like i dun noe wad... if i were to plan out my time well... mayb i wont even hav some time to rest... sigh... n when one is tired... naturally his tots will run a bit "strange"... mayb its juz stress ba... i dun noe... i seriously hope tt all can be fine... hmm... all along i've been havin this idea tt i shld go out n help pple... tolk to them, befriend them, be there for them... ok... now i admit... i failed... wad happens when u urself r burdened down wif all kinds of stuff???... u c some probs btw pple... u want to solve them... u c some things not done... u want to finish them... u c some pple givin u unreasonable comments n expectations... u really feel like flarin up... ok... all these things of anguish juz suddenly come back to me... mayb my mum was really rite abt me... i do bear grudges... smtimes there's juz this extreme feelin of hate in me against things which i dun noe myself... *strange, iseneh*... seriously... its quite tough to put up some front b4 other pple... n esp when i c tt wad i had set out to do for this yr has not yet been havin any headway... im actually backslidin... y do i juz hav this inbuilt character which i dun really want at times???... y cant i juz get rid of some things???...
P.S: i will be all right tml... this was jus written at a moment when im bogged down by tiredness, stress, n other factors which i cant tink of clearly rite now... :(